I no longer do things to impress
But to express.
I know that my voice has a value and I don’t want to give it away for free.
I’ve learned that in order to please someone, you have to please yourself first.
But why would I want to please someone when I can be fully content and happy with myself ?
I’ve lost my soul and my truth, by trying to look up to people, maybe too afraid to look into myself and find out that I wasn’t build enough, that I had a hole deep inside myself nobody could fill but me.
Relying on myself, trying to find out what my color is, what shade defines my emotions, what light better suits me, what I really am, was the start of a new life, my life. Not the one others painted for me, not a projections of somebody’s fear or a puzzle of a decade of people broken dreams, but me, just me.

Me

My voice, my laughs, my silliness, my hopes, my dreams, my direction, my conceptions, my deceptions, my healing, my flows, my lows, my mistakes, my genius moments, my achievements, my pride of being me, my unapologetic way of living, loving and liking it. Yes I am me, I exist just by being me. I give this world a value by speaking up what’s in my heart, MY diversity. I am. My construction, my path, my vision, it’s expression, my opinion, me.

It was hard but I overcame.

Overcame the fear that kept me from trying to be different.

Overcame the non yet existing but perceptible rejection that would come with my positioning.

Overcame and accepted, to feel the fear and then to face it.

Overcame and accepted to be rejected for no other reason than being me.

Today is a new day, a new season in which I decide, I think, I administrate and rule.

I’ve found me.

S